heartbeat?

i was though that this necessary for me to keep mad or not . i thougt when i've you ., i can share everything i feel and of course my family matter . but ,. im wromg ! totally wrong babe .

yes you're new in this situation .. in my life oso my family . aku try what for being nice dgn you . tapi ape yang jadi ., nothing ! you just nak keep you own lifestyle like stranger and follow where your 'leader' anywhere ! hello ,. ur part of my family and my self ,. so ,. please la try jgn jadi stranger .. it almost 2 month okay .. not 2 weeks .

i miss my life before 2 month ago . im only have my family member .. and i am happy with them . everything change when you come on my part in this life .. i am not hate you ,. not even doesnt like you or any bad feeling to you .. but you put yourself in wrong ways . aku tak tau nak cakap apa .

kalau lah kau boleh ubah perangai kau . aku lah orang paling bahagia do .. aku sangat perlukan seseorang yang dekat dengan aku dan yg boleh aku share everything dgn nye .. boleh membantu aku .. tapi , youre totally weird . seems like you dari plenet marikh ke hape lah kan ,.. then di kutip plak ttbe ,.. haha ! my friend oso admit it and i cant deny anymore about that .

aku tak tahu lah nak cakap kat sape dah ,. i am not stronger to voice out what i felt now . what i suppose to do now ? halau kau ? no., i tak mampu . sound kau ? pun aku tak mampu .. ape yang aku mampu ,. buat seperti biasa walaupun ia nye menyakitkan hati . maybe aku perlu lebih bersabar . tape ,. ni satu dugaan . *maybe

2weeks . i'll be free from practical training ,. aku happy ! tapi sedih , aku kne tinggalkan life aku selama 3 tahun di kolej . tgalkan kwn2 yang best . tgalkan segala gala yang aku ada kat sana .. :( life aku akan berubah lagi .. and plus aku sedang fikirkan , hari hari aku bila aku dah tak bersama kawan kat hostel .. aku akan stay kat rumah ,. jadi surirumah .,peng'on9' tegar ,. segala slot cerita kat tv aku akan hafal dan tgok .. haha ! tipu ! aku mungkin tak sebahagia sekarang dan hari hari yang lepas.. sebab hari yang akan datang lagi mencabar . -_-

ppl change every year , every day , every hour , every second . and i am one of them . you also .